For the last few weeks I have realized for some reason I cannot concentrate. Even though I already watched the movie 9 which was totally holding me back. I have realized that now I do things with out even thinking what for? Like last week I tied a rope I found from one end of my room to the other. I have no idea why. However I took it down the next morning after I started having a huge back pain. Then today for some reason that I don't know of I took my backpack with all my drawings to the flea market. I got down from the car and then couldn't even run because of my heavy backpack. I realized I had been walking a mile with the backpack in my shoulders. So, I took it back to the car. My father stared at me like "what the-". Then people kept on stearing at me because I was dressed all wrong. I was wearing a long skirt with a long shirt and flats to a dirty flea market in which you walk on grabel only.......
I don't think this has anything to do with my movie-9-obession which I had and almost got me to faint in the kitchen one day. I kept on thinking of that movie and the trailers and the mini clips for it that I lost concentration, balance, and common sence. I even got in trouble with a teacher this week and I NEVER get in trouble with teachers! Some weird things are happening and I just have no idea why, how, when, what, and where they happen or will happen. Who knows, maybe tomorrow I will faint in the middle of the hallway at school?!
Another thing I thought was the main trouble was my sleeping. For the past 8 years of school, I have been forced to go to sleep at 12:00 midnight in the week days and 8 PM week ends. It had always been so strange how everytime no matter at what time I went to sleep i would still have lots of energy for the next day. However, somehow my grades started dropping and I had to do something. So I tried my best to stop it. Now I go to sleep like at 10 PM. Even though my parents don't care about what grades I get..... I DO!!
So my conclusion is what in the world is happening to me?! I can't even talk to boys that are my friends! I got mad at my BESTEST FRIEND EVER last week not even knowing she had gotten a panic attack int he beginning of the day! I have been doing strange things around the house for no absolute reason! I don't know what's going on anymore! I just don't! :starts to cry:
